New Order – True Faith (1987)
“Don’t cry, I’m sorry to have deceived you so much, but that’s how life is.”
― Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita
To cut through the snark, sarcasm, cynicism and general clever smart-arsery that generally dominates this blog space courtesy of yours truly for a moment….Hang on, let’s see if I can genuinely stifle the need to mock and joke around….Okay, let’s do this….um…eh…see if I can genuinely summon a true personal feeling and reveal something of myself in an emotionally truthful and naked fashion here…give me a few seconds, please…..so, this is the thing…um, this song by the legendary New Order which I have listened to roughly seven million times in the past twenty years has always had a special personal meaning….Ugh, I know, I know, now I’ve lapsed back into self-reflexivity as a defence mechanism upon realizing how much that statement sounded like the stereotypical voice of a self involved narcissist blog writer. So, I will just state that…no, what’s the point? The song can speak for itself surely and communicate what I’m clearly having trouble doing. In this here and now, the creeping uncertainty; those moments of self-pity, fear, inertia and spiritual defeat; what I have become now crystalized in this song…forever and ever, amen. The dream is now buried within another dream, that of a man long gone.